February 03, 2004

DON'T ASK IF YOU DON'T WANT MY ANSWER

we were tired last night and in bed and asleep very early. shortly after 9, the phone rang. she asked for me. it was a lady who was considering sending her 16 year old to aspen achievement academy. aspen had given her my name as a parent reference.

i rambled not very cohesively for well over a half hour. and i gave her jackson’s web site link. i hope she looked at it. i’ve been thinking about the call all day and thought i might be able to speak more coherently here.

aspen achievement academy is a treatment facility for troubled teens. these troubles range from defiance and oppositional behavior all the way to severe addiction. honestly, i can only speak about what aspen meant to jackson (in MY view) as a drug addict.

the strangest thing about jackson (before aspen and sobriety) is that we had NO problems with defiance, disrespect, and general oppositional behavior. i’m not going to tell you that everything was great with him except for that pesky little drug problem and the $8,000 he pretty much stole from us to feed it.

jackson (as a human, emotional, functional machine) pretty much stopped working properly soon after i was diagnosed with m.s. he was 9. it seemed to me that in a big way he stopped learning, stopped making friends, stopped functioning in his real world. this continued, and the disconnects led to bigger and bigger problems in school, and ultimately, i believe, led him to the comfort of mind-altering substances.

except for the stealing and lying that accompanied the drug using, jackson was respectful and loving. i’m laughing (snorting) at that last sentence, too. if i said be home at 10, he was home at 10. if we said no, he said ok. weird, huh?

so when we finally found out what was going on, and made the decision to send him for treatment, he made a small attempt to be a pain in the ass; but jackson was jackson. he knew he needed help, he knew he wanted to be a better person, he knew it was up to him to use the opportunity. so, bottom line is that we were so far ahead of the game there.

so, for jackson, aspen was great. it gave him 7 weeks to sober up, 7 weeks to learn about himself, 7 weeks to see a glimpse of what he COULD be. aspen didn’t cure jackson. i don’t think aspen can cure anybody. aspen is about showing the kid a small piece of his own power to cure himself.

don’t get me wrong here. the kid cannot do it himself. if he comes home and right back to the life he WAS leading (same friends, same shit), it’s only a matter of time before he’s right back to where he started. i’ve told these parents who call me that it takes 100 percent commitment. every minute of the kid’s day must be supervised. if that means home schooling, and you can do it, you must do it. if you can’t, you have to find a place and person who will do this for you. i don’t know what this means. for us it was home schooling, with bill working out of the house, jackson accompanying him EVERYWHERE. or dropping him off at my office. not easy. but what are your choices, really?

jackson told us he wanted to go back to school, we found a school for him to attend; but two weeks before classes started, he told us that as much as he wanted to be with other kids and live the life of a normal kid, he realized he just couldn’t go to school. that for him it would be like spending 5 days a week in a bar. i’ve repeated this to people who’ve laughed derisively at the thought that a school is like an open bar. fine. ignore what he’s trying to say.

so my advice is this: send him. but be prepared for the real work to start when he comes home. if you don’t have the stomach for THAT, don’t waste your money.

every single kid that jackson kept in touch with went back to same old friends, etc. every single one relapsed.

Posted by Stacey at February 3, 2004 03:43 PM
Comments

Hmmmm...interesting concept, parenting and work (so says the author of the upcoming bestseller, TW's Guide to Lazy Parenting). Why would it be a surprise to any parent that addiction isn't just a little problem where you can send the kid away for a bit and he/she comes back "cured"? Why would it be a surprise that the whole family is going to have to help? You see, in my definition, all this IS lazy parenting. Non-lazy parenting would be to not help the kid out, live through a number of relapses and worsening behavior, etc. I'm rambling now, so I'll stop.

Posted by: TW at February 3, 2004 04:49 PM

Oh yes, just want to mention in my book, lazy parenting is not a bad thing.

Posted by: TW at February 3, 2004 04:49 PM

tw: i get exactly what you mean. that it would be almost earth-moving effort to do nothing. i always say that, too.

Posted by: stacey at February 3, 2004 05:22 PM

Luckily, I never had to deal with addiction issues with my four daughters. Their dad dealt me enough misery for 10 kids. We are divorced now. I tried everything I knew, and nothing kept him from self destruct mode. Perhaps I couldn't totally shake the enabler role, but finally with the last chick ready for college I jumped that sinking ship. Very glad for you, seems you have overcome a lot of obstacles. Cheerio!

Posted by: Cowtown Pattie at February 4, 2004 08:28 PM

I have said this before - you and Bill have been great parents. It does take a lot of hard work and committment from the parents to see their child through the hard and dark times. Some parents just don't care enough. Don't wish to make it their problem. In fact I think a lot of parents turn their back in the hope it will just go away. And this is sad for the child who really wants to change but cannot do it on his own.

Posted by: Michelle at February 5, 2004 03:50 AM

Michelle says it exactly. When we had our problems with Christian it was automatic to reorganise our lives so that he was never alone etc. etc. How can people make children and then expect them to run their lives on their own like clockwork mice?

Posted by: Anji at February 5, 2004 05:14 AM

Yea, imagine the concept of parentin by action. What a concept.

Posted by: kathy at February 5, 2004 03:42 PM