April 16, 2004

Eyes

Our 30th anniversary is June 8th. This has been a struggle the last few years with brain lesions, depression, drug addiction, and complaints about vicious dogs taking their toll, but last night I looked over at this woman asleep beside me and it occurred to me, while I was studying her peaceful features, that her lips are the same as they looked all those years ago. And she still has that little cleft in her chin, the same as she did when I met her. And her nose, she's got this nice nose, not like me, which when you really study it, you notice a subtle round curve at the end; and I remember teasing her one time that she had a big ball on the end of her nose; and that is still there - not the ball, just this perfect curvature, like something that Da Vinci would draw, subtle and beautiful, yet not noticeable unless you are aware of it. I looked at her eyebrows - she doesn't pull them out or do anything to them. When we were in high school, I asked her why she did that -- plucked them or shaved them, whatever -- telling her she didn't have to; and I don't think she's done anything since. There is the hint of smile lines around her mouth now as she sleeps, which weren't there 30 years ago. They look good on her. I like them.

Her eyes are a mixture of gold and brown and green, but I couldn't see them because her eyes were closed - sleeping peacefully, comfortable in the bed I made for us. I put my hand on her cheek and caressed it softly. And when I opened up her eye to check the color, she woke up and asked me what the fuck I was doing. It was hard to explain at the time last night. I just hope this helps.

Posted by Bill at April 16, 2004 02:24 PM
Comments

Thank you for the warm fuzzy.

Posted by: Charlene at April 16, 2004 03:17 PM

That Stacey, she has a way with words.....

I bet she knows exactly how luck she is!

-d

Posted by: -d at April 16, 2004 04:15 PM

And obviously, you know exactly how luck you are!!!
-d

Posted by: -d at April 16, 2004 04:16 PM

Like Charlene said .... I got a warm fuzzy feeling whilst reading that. It was so beautifully written. I wonder if anyone will write about me like that one day. Mine I think will go something like ..... her teeth are out whilst she is sleeping and her lips are sucked in, moving with her heavy snoring. Her face is so wrinkled I can't imagine what she looked like in her youth........

Posted by: Michelle at April 17, 2004 04:35 AM

Oh, that was so romantic.

Posted by: Anji at April 17, 2004 07:23 AM

That was so sweet. Definitely warm and fuzzy. And does she remember being awakened in the night?

Posted by: Keri at April 17, 2004 05:11 PM

bill and stacey, that was a beautiful entry. thanks for cracking me up.

our 13th anniversary is 1 week before yours. i'll think of you as we count each year forward, and hope that in 17 years doug can make me ask "what the fuck are you doing" in a similar vein.

cheers.
-cg

Posted by: christine at April 19, 2004 02:41 PM

So romantic, and the "gotcha" is just a perfect ending! Stacey rocks! And congrats to you both.

Posted by: Cowtown Pattie at April 20, 2004 10:27 PM