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HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! i'm on my way to columbus in a few minutes with bill and jax to meet matt for brunch and some shopping. i love mother's day. i LOVE being a mom.

i had a dream about five years ago that i have kept close to my heart ever since then. it wasn't really a big dream. it was just a few moments long. but it was huge to me.

it came for me during a difficult time. i was still struggling mightily with my new picture of myself as a gimp. my family was reeling from that and their own issues. jax was a mess -- in the middle of his using days. bill was a mess -- dealing with me, jax, his father, work issues. matt was a mess.

in my dream, bill, matt, jax, and i are walking through a store. all three of them towered over me. all four of us were HAPPY and laughing. bill was happy and at peace. i was -- unbelievably to me -- happy. i was completely accepting of my new self. i can't even think of the words here. the "boys" were older than they were in reality at the time. it was strange and inexplicable to me at the time of the dream that they seemed to be in their early twenties , each of them, yet seemingly much closer in age than they actually are. they were each mature, confident, and happy. i couldn't reconcile or understand the age difference, yet i've thought of this dream -- called it back to me for support -- many, many times. it was a dream of possibilities for me.

i'm living my dream today.

MARCUS: wish you were here, bud! thanks for the gorgeous tulips and vase!

p.s. happy wedding day, dana and jeff!

Posted by Stacey at May 8, 2005 08:00 AM