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WHAT HAPPENED

here's what happened.

a little more than a year ago, jax fell in love.

hard. verrrry serious for him. and for her, he thought. the problem was, relationship-wise, that the girl wanted to be "friends" with the previous boyfriend, a guy who beat the crap out of her at least several times. that was tough for him -- that she could accept someone like that back into her life, even as a friend.

program-wise -- SHE thought he was "cured." SHE didn't think he needed to make the program the huge part of his life that it had been. so...

supposedly, he stayed clean until the last turbulent week of the relationship. sometime in may, i think it was.

idiots that we are, we didn't notice the changes in him until around august. he was angry, lazy, immature. he couldn't hold a job, he was draining us. emotionally and financially.

he continued on a downward spiral, not being able to find a job, ruining holidays, letting us down when we needed him for something. was just an asshole. it was hard.

still, he insisted he was clean. that he was just depressed. we sent him to two doctors. they didn't catch anything. pffft.

we tried to get him to go to meetings. he resisted. he didn't like those a.a. people.

when he got arrested for trying to steal some sudafed (one of his old drugs of choice), we STILL believed him (it was my first try, mom). but by that time it really didn't matter to us if he was using or not. we told him he had to sign a contract with us that included working a program (and attend meetings every single day) if he wanted to continue stay with us. within one week, he found -- and walked out on -- a job, was arrested again, and charged with another petty theft and possession of paraphernalia.

we told him that the only way we would let him back in with us was that he had to agree to whatever his therapist recommended (he had an appointment the next day, last monday).

john, his therapist, called us tuesday morning, told bill that it was a HUGE problem, to get him into inpatient immediately. we called the facility he recommended right that minute. john called. jax got the first bed open on wednesday morning.

he signed himself in. he says he's willing and ready. says he's being honest. he calls us twice a day. half the time he's angry and ranting about the center, though. it does seem to be lessening a little. his counselor, pam, is tough and on the ball. i have a lot of hope. i'm guessing he'll be there for 28 to 45 days.

writing and reading this over is amazing. am i brain dead or what?

i said to bill last week, "what if we really wrote about our lives on the blog?" here i am.

keep praying, peeps.

Posted by Stacey at April 14, 2006 10:53 AM