I have no words of my own but I think these are truly beautiful:
http://www.barefootsworld.net/natpray.html
Posted by KathyHowe at August 19, 2006 06:44 PMi find myself praying these days too
Posted by mark at August 19, 2006 09:11 PMBreaks my heart as a mother to read this, Stace. You and Bill have certainly had more hard knocks than I could have stood.
Though I've never had to deal with bad addiction with my girls, I can understand how it physically makes you sick. Sick with worry, sick with heartache, and sick that you can't make it better for your kid.
My long distance hug is on its way.
Posted by Cowtown Pattie at August 20, 2006 12:16 AMHugs
Posted by Anji at August 20, 2006 07:47 AMWe give you so much credit for what you are doing. I can't even imagine how you are functioning. How do you sleep, eat or just get through a day. Our hearts and prayers are with you all. Jax is so young, you must believe that he can recover. God bless!
Posted by Ron and Rose at August 20, 2006 08:31 AMOh, Stacey. Oh, Bill. I am thinking of you and sending all the support I can. Oh Stacey. "You did the right thing" is such a hollow reed of support. But you did.
Posted by Liz at August 20, 2006 11:23 AMBe calm, be brave. It'll be okay....
To tell you truth I've said it before tomorrow I start in a new direction
I know I've been half asleep I'm never doing that again
I look straight at what's coming ahead and soon it's gonna change in a new direction
Every night as I'm falling asleep these words repeated in my head
-guster
i am reading this entry and that song is on my itunes and i've got chills. my hair is standing up on the back of my neck. i want jax to live that and do that. i want that to be my prayer for you and for him -- and that the holy spirit move into him and take the wheel and drive.
fuck. this is so familiar and so painful. and i so want everything to be okay.
much love, deep prayers.
i'm glad you were able to have the moments with m&m and the dinner -- and i'm glad jax called you and you stood up to the coming home. i'm glad he has checked into the jail. i'm glad the cops were kind.
be calm. be brave. it'll be okay.
Oh Stace!
Oh Stacey!
Oh! Oh! Oh! OH!
I wish I could take your pain.
-d
Posted by -d at August 20, 2006 03:13 PMI am just breathless after reading your post. This roller coaster with Jax is so painful for me...I can't even imagine how it feels for you and Bill. I'm crying with you, believe me.
I love you.
Posted by moonandsun03 at August 21, 2006 10:53 AMholy hell, where have I been?
I'm so sorry to read all of this. For all of you.
Love to each and every one of you. You WILL get through this. I just know you will. Little words from a person who hasn't got a clue.
Sending loads of love and prayers.
Posted by Keri at August 22, 2006 05:09 AM