i have a horrible ear infection. the plan was to stay home today and get in to see the doctor, but i HAD to get to work. the other sales coordinator is sick. so i’m feeling like shit, and i had the morning from hell here at work. so i’m taking a much-needed break here. michelle, i’ll work on some good questions for you later. k?
jax got to see the doctor today though. i thought he had a sinus infection, and so bill made the appointment on friday. today he’s feeling much better, and doc says it’s just a cold. so he’s on the mend. jax told him about me, but doc needs to see my ear before he gives me drops. dammit! he did prescribe antibiotics though. but here’s the cool part. doc wanted to prescribe jax a stronger version of robitussin – jax said “not a good idea.” so doc didn’t. i’m so proud that jax did that! EXCELLENT.
bill received an e-mail last week from a family member about me that hurt me / us deeply. the part that hurt both of us was where our role in jax’s recovery was questioned because we did not tell this person all about jax’s treatment and addiction last year! jax asked us not to, and we discussed it with his couselor, who also asked us not to tell certain people. i’m pissed and hurt. this person knows jax so very little, knows us so very little, knows NOTHING about the whole thing we went through, and has the fucking gall to speak self-righteously about our negative impact on his recovery. pfffft. does not begin to express how i feel.
the other thing i learned was that some people with whom and to whom i had placed my trust and confided some personal things shared these things with others. others with whom my relationship is distant – at best. lovely after-dinner conversation.
yet, i was told i need to work on myself. oh yeah. i’m working on being more careful about who i trust. and i’m working on getting over this hurt. i’ll be fine because i know where my heart is. right here.
people who know the least are often the most assertive in saying it. I've dealt with this with my family so many times, and now I have learned that my mom simply cannot ever be trusted either to keep a confidence nor to understand what I am telling her. She's not an evil person, but she gets me so angry sometimes when she shares inappropriately or gets herself involved in our business. All we can say is, "she doesn't know better - I can't let her dictate what is right and wrong, I must make those decisions myself." This relative who's giving you grief - why should you care about his opinion? What's his training in this field? You can ignore him or put him in his place. My tendency is to put people in their places, but that's the litigator in me talking - and it's not going to make my mom change her ways...
Posted by: dan at September 15, 2003 06:37 PMHope you feel better soon - ear and otherwise. My perspective on the whole Jax scenario is one of jealousy members of the family. You did good and they could just not handle it so they had to lash out at you. Your heart is in the right place.
Posted by: Michelle at September 16, 2003 01:06 AMSome people just think they know better than anyone else. Can't say anymore because I get too upset about it. Hope you're feeling better soon
Posted by: Anji at September 16, 2003 08:07 AMSorry that had to happen to you. It's rough when people we should be able to look to for support try to bring us down.
Posted by: TW at September 16, 2003 12:33 PMHope your ear feels better. Condolences on having *that* sort of family member. You know my feelings on that subject.
Posted by: kathy at September 16, 2003 03:39 PM