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you missed me, dincha? admit it. i knew it.

wow. the last time i blogged was july 10. yow. i admit it. i’m a bad, baaaad blogger. really. i know it. sometimes i just don’t feel like blogging. and i really haven’t felt like it much lately. i feel bad about it, and i don’t feel bad about it. i know that you have to keep writing and posting to keep your traffic stats up, but i find it really hard to care about that. i just don’t. i’m just not that sociable, i guess. i don’t NEED a HUGE circle of friends. i’m happy at a party to sit and talk one-on-one with people in whom i’m interested. that’s what drew me to blogging. reading other people’s stories. and sharing mine. they may not be of interest to everybody, and i don’t care.

july 10. i was coming “down” off the steroids. bummer. since, i’m “off,” the knee pain’s back (really – it’s pain from the tendon that the surgeon had to cut, reposition, and reattach. i guess the tendon’s going to take quite a bit longer to heal than the new knee. wow that was really interesting. not.) and i’m back to “normal” energy-wise. normal for me means very, very, very low energy. i’m gonna talk to my regular doctor about this. i can’t stand it anymore. i had a taste of the good life, and i want it all the time now.

i turned 51 on the 23rd of july. had a very nice birthday. very, very nice.

we redecorated (refurnished) the living room.

we’re continuing to work on the new guest room – the east room (jax’s old room). we hope to have that done soon. very soon. one houseguest this weekend. more next weekend.

bella’s “mostly” housetrained now. “mostly” is about all you can expect, imho, from a puppy under a year old. she’s figured out that she’s much, MUCH bigger than scout. scoutie doesn’t like it. one. bit. go scout. sheba’s mostly aloof and above it all. empty nest? whatever.

jax had his first gig a couple weeks ago. very cool. he’s been spending a lot of time in the studio working on his cd. he hopes to have four songs ready by the end of the week.

i’m having a garage sale this thursday, friday, and saturday. i am NOT looking forward to it. it’s supposed to be the hottest days of the year. pffft. jackson is coming to help, though; maybe i’ll leave him to the sale, and i’ll go work on the east room. hmmmm.

we went to a wedding of a son of a dear, dear friend saturday. old, old friend. seated at a table of ten with old high-school friends. lot of history (not all positive) with some of these friends. and, like i said, i prefer the one-on-one... it was a very nice wedding, though.

i’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the wedding “experience” since saturday night. i have to admit that it really, REALLY bothers me to see people whom i haven’t seen in a long time and “see” reflected in their eyes the new picture of me. the gimpy stacey. the stacey that they feel compelled to help. shit. i think i’ve pretty well adjusted to this new(er) status. and then something like this happens. and i KNOW it’s me. i KNOW it’s my problem. blah, blah, blah.

my brand-new (bought in january) computer is fucked up. still under warranty, so i’m not worried about the computer. it’s just that i added about 60 whole cd’s to the music library and then got rid of the cd’s before backing up my hard drive. in the meantime, the computer malfunctioned. heh. dumbass = me. AND. i had to reset my treo phone, and the back-up’s on that computer. fuck. contacts. memos. checkbooks. all kinds of shit. tech support at medion is supposed to call me if they have to reformat the hard drive (i had to send it back). pray god they’ll let me talk them into backing up the hard drive for me BEFORE they WIPE OUT EVERYTHING. pray god.

so basically, life’s been going on with me while i’ve been away. some tough stuff that i won’t talk about here. but we persevere. got to keep moving. and there’s so much good stuff in our lives – all the time – that i WON’T stop moving.

i bet you wish i took a longer hiatus, doncha?

Posted by Stacey at August 2, 2005 07:31 PM