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SUPER BARBIE SCOOTER MAXINE

it’s official. her name is max. officially "super barbie scooter maxine." here’s bill driving her home from pride of cleveland scooters. I freaking LOVE this picture!

I wanted a scooter to enhance the quality of my life -- a scooter will open up more of the city to me. most of my brain damage winds up limiting my mobility in a big way. balance and thermostat problems make it very uncomfortable, if not impossible, to walk more than a block and a half. and bill's ALWAYS up for an adventure; adventures abound in the city. often, he feels guilty indulging himself; then I feel guilty.

once I realized a scooter would be the solution to this problem, no one could change my mind.

matt and mel and jackson weren't thrilled with the idea. my sister, diann, was particularly annoyed and concerned. especially after I fell and broke my shoulder, they worried.

I tried to impress upon them that this was more about opening up my life and improving the quality of both my and bill's life. AND, i'd/WE'D wear helmets and hold the rides to within a certain, limited radius from home. and be really, REALLY careful.

I try very hard not to be governed or limited by fear. i couldn't feel good about that that DECISION. I have enough very real physical limitations - the last thing I need are "imaginary" boundaries.

i've felt a lot of fear in the past couple weeks just THINKING about riding a scooter. "maybe the kids and diann are right."

I REALLY felt a LOT of fear riding bill's scooter last week and my little super-barbie scooter, maxine, yesterday. i'm not very good at it yet, so bill's being very patient and careful with me. there were a couple times when I felt like it might just be the right thing, even the smart thing to let fear make the decision to quit. it sure would have been the easy thing. but I can't do that. I rode 10 MILES yesterday - and i'm really proud of myself. i'll keep working at it, and they tell me i'll get better and less panicky and more confident. and then it will be all FUN (I did feel SOME fun yesterday).

i'm trying to work this through for myself here; I KNOW that I feel a lot of fear and know that I could be TOTALLY ruled by it.

bill said to me on my once-or-50- arounds in the garage, "don't quit on me, stace." I won't..

we just got back from starbucks! that was scary as freaking hell! traffic is picking up down here – the browns play at 1. we parked in front of a meter with a very macho motorcycle cop who said he wouldn’t let us get a ticket. I talked to him about my inexperience and fear. he was so cool and encouraging. super barbie scooter maxine brings out the best in everybody!

Posted by Stacey at October 14, 2007 11:52 AM